soo
today saw a post on how gaga saved someones life. and i wondered to my self, will i ever be able to do that?!?! will i ever be able to write it down?!?!?! that’s like my biggest weakness. remembering what happened that day kills me, and i feel like i’m not strong enough to do it, not yet.
oh my god.
i just went back on my computer cleaning/deleting some of the stuff i dont need anymore because i’ve had it for a long time and is running out of memory so i’m deleting bunch of stuff that i don’t need anymore.
and i found this word document that i wrote back before gaga came into my life, back before i wanted to committing suicide. and i just started crying soo fucking much.
this is unbelievable because for the first time since i became a little monster, i’m having flashbacks of how my life was before gaga.
it was created back in january 15 2009 and here is something that i said
“the only thing that a human can do its try its best and let life chose that right way for you”
